My youngest starts Kindergarten tomorrow. He is ready. I am not. The issue isn't about not knowing what to do with myself. Kindergarten is 3 1/2 hours long. I have 2 part time jobs, am on the PTA and the yearbook committee at the kids' school and will volunteer in both their classrooms. Plus I'm the maid, the cook and the laundry fairy. There is never enough time in the day.
The issue is I'm all verklempt. Also, I'm baffled. Where in the hell does the time go? How can he be this old? He was just born!. How is it that the days can be interminably long and the years fly by?!? My parents have been telling me for decades that time only speeds up. Impossible to believe as a kid, but all too easy comprehend rounding the bend to 40.
I regularly cry during TV shows and movies and possibly even well up during sentimental commercials (like when the Dad is talking to the little girl about driving and then all of a sudden she's a teenager driving away or that credit card commercial from a few years ago with the song 100 Years playing in the background as they showed a couple getting married, having kids, and being old- I would full on cry during that one) so it's no surprise that my baby going to Kindergarten has me stifling the urge to randomly weep throughout the day. We went to the Kinder meet and greet today. The teacher asked me to write down how my son would get home tomorrow after school and I felt a sting in my eyes and had to force back the tears. I think she noticed. It was very kind of her not to roll her eyes. I am going to try very hard to keep it together tomorrow morning. I will bid the children adieu, attend the PTA parent mixer, smile, chat, and wait at least until I get in the car to let the tears flow. I predict the ugly cry.
My first baby is going to be a 5th grader. We wear the same size shoes and she will be taller than me by Xmas. I truly don't know how that happened. Well, I'm short and Scott is tall so it's not really that shocking that she's almost as tall as me at age 10, but, but, but, she was just born! The kids will attend the same school for just 1 year as it's a K-5th. I'm already anticipating the Kindergarten and 5th grade promotion ceremonies within in the same week next Spring. It's gonna be rough.
Peace & Love :-)
I hear you friend. You are a great mom with wonderful kids so your next chapter will be exciting and memory-filled. (I say this even though we're on vacation & F is throwing up & more. How can we get on a plane tomorrow?? Good times) xoxox. Shan
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